"It is inside me and I cannot escape it"
Bollywood actress Kalki Koechlin, who regularly kept her fans up to date with her pregnancy, has been blessed with a baby girl on Friday, February 7, 2020.
The proud mother of one created a frenzy on social media back in September 2019, when she announced she was expecting her first child with boyfriend Guy Hershberg.
Despite receiving some negative reactions for having a child out of wedlock, Kalki did not let that stop her from enjoying her pregnancy.
Now the actress is ready to embrace motherhood as she embarks on this new chapter in her life.
Over the last several months, Kalki regularly posted pictures of her baby bump.
Kalki also started a ‘#9monthseries’ on Instagram where she shared images and her thoughts on her pregnancy journey.
A few days ago, the actress wrote a heartfelt note on Instagram concerning her pregnancy. She said:
“Love and hate. Seems to be everywhere these days. A worldwide debate. But I don’t need to look far to find it.
“I see this cycle of love and hate in my own family. We curse each other and scream and shout and break things until we ourselves break.
“Then we cry, feel the guilt and look down at our feet. We hug gingerly, love reluctantly and forget quickly until it is repeated again.
“Love and hate. A habit. Like two magnets in constant repulsion.”
“Perhaps the opposite of hate is not love, but understanding. And the opposite of love is not hate but neglect.
“There are so many uncomfortable extremes that make us feel we must react at once and put a stop to it – slam the door, walk away, shout your way to the other person’s silence, unleash unthinkable acts of violence.”
Kalki continued to mention how this type of discomfort cannot be escaped rather one must be patient. She said:
“But living with discomfort all the time, as I do not because it is inside me and I cannot escape it, I have to be patient.
“My body demands it, my mind shuts down, my heart can only beat. If I erupt, it is inward and I alone feel the heat.
“I feel small, very small from the sheer mystery and unfamiliarity of the grand working taking over inside me.
“And so eventually I’m reduced to baby steps, forced to listen and respond, to note down and break years of habit in this moment.
Kalki Koechlin went on to state how it is time for a change, a time to break away from this cycle. She explained:
“Today the cycle will not repeat. Today I will plant a seed allowing my intentions to grow into another being – another me, but more conscious, more careful.
“I feel as if this creature, which begins as a virus of discomfort inside me, slowly threatening my independence, stalling my capacity to create or to think for myself and eating into my daily routine, is now firmly a mirror of my own insecurities, a counter to my fears, a soul that can evolve and grown more rapidly than I have in all my years.
“So perhaps the opposite of destruction is not creation but simply balance. And the opposite of creation is not destruction but constant distraction.
“So I sit and wait. Write and read. Try to keep my balance. And breathe. Because that’s all I can get right sometimes.”
As of yet, no news has been shared about the wellbeing of Kalki or her baby girl.
We hope both mother and daughter are doing well and wish Kalki Koechlin and Guy Hershberg enjoy this next chapter in their lives together.