Samantha admits having ‘Darkest Thoughts’ after Divorce

Samantha Ruth Prabhu opened up about her divorce and revealed that afterwards, she was in a “very dark place”.

The actress had been married to Naga Chaitanya before they divorced in 2021.

Shortly after her divorce, Samantha spoke about being diagnosed with myositis.

She admitted that the past few months have been difficult and has not fully recovered from all the setbacks.

After her divorce, trolls accused Samantha of handling it with grace, something she has stated was untrue.

She recalled: “While I was offered ‘Oo Antava’, I was in the middle of all of the separation.

“So it’s like okay I’m doing it because I just thought that why should I hide?

“I mean I did not do anything wrong why should I hide? I was not going to go into hiding and wait for all of the trolling and abuse to go away and then slowly creep back in like some someone who had committed a crime.

“I was not going to do that.

“I gave my marriage 100%, it did not work out but I was not going to beat myself up and feel guilty for something that I didn’t do.”

Stating that she does not see herself as “strong and independent”, Samantha continued:

“Maybe from a third person’s point of view it’s that, I was just being myself. I don’t know any other way to react.

“Nobody else is deciding for me, there’s no one in my head, it’s my natural reaction.

“I see all of the lows, all the days I didn’t want to get out of bed, I see the crying, I see the constant asking my mom if I’m going to be okay.

“That’s not superhuman strength. There’s a little girl in there as well, who is weak and wants to get better.”

Admitting that she had “dark thoughts” in the aftermath, Samantha said:

“During the toughest times of this condition, I was in a very dark place, and I had some really dark thoughts.”

“You name it, I had the most darkest thoughts.

“And then I realised that I’m not going to do anything about these dark thoughts.

“If I’m not going to let it destroy me, it means that I’m going to have to start putting one step forward. And every day after that, I took it one step at a time, and I’ve had amazing people, family and close friends, who’ve stood by me every single day.

“I still haven’t overcome it, but the number of bad days has reduced a lot.”

Meanwhile, Samantha Ruth Prabhu will next be seen in Shaakuntalam, which will release on April 14, 2023.