"I had fantasies of unloading a revolver"
A New York-based psychiatrist has come under fire after she said she had fantasised about “unloading a revolver into the head of any white person” who got in her way.
Dr Aruna Khilanani made the shocking remarks during a talk titled ‘The Psychopathic Problem of the White Mind’ at Yale University.
Dr Khilanani gave the talk virtually to medical students and faculty in April 2021.
Audio of her talk was published on June 4, 2021, on journalist Bari Weiss’ Substack blog.
During the talk, Dr Khilanani said:
“I had fantasies of unloading a revolver into the head of any white person that got in my way, burying their body and wiping my bloody hands as I walked away relatively guiltless with a bounce in my step.
“Like I did the world a f**king favour.”
She went on to say that white people believe they are being bullied when people of colour bring up race.
The psychiatrist described it as a “psychological predicament”.
She said: “They feel that we should be thanking them for all that they have done for us.
“They are confused, and so are we. We keep forgetting that directly talking about race is a waste of our breath.
“We are asking a demented, violent predator who thinks that they are a saint or a superhero, to accept responsibility. It ain’t gonna happen. They have five holes in their brain.
“It’s like banging your head against a brick wall. It’s just like sort of not a good idea.”
Dr Khilanani also said speaking to white people about race was “useless” because they are not at the same level of conversation.
“Addressing racism assumes that white people can see and process what we are talking about.
“They can’t. That’s why they sound demented. They don’t even know they have a mask on.
“White people think it’s their actual face. We need to get to know the mask.”
She also said white people were “out of their minds” and that they make her “blood boil”.
“This is the cost of talking to white people at all. The cost of your own life, as they suck you dry.
“There are no good apples out there. White people make my blood boil.”
After the talk, Yale only made it available to students and faculty with a warning that it contained “profanity and imagery for violence”.
Dr Khilanani says it was only released internally after some people called for it to be released.
She now says Yale is trying to suppress her by not releasing the footage of her talk publicly.
In a series of TikTok videos, she claims the university has not included the name of the talk or that she delivered it.
One video caption read: “My talk at Yale Child Study Center was just released internally. Unnamed and untitled like the privilege it protects.”
In an interview, Dr Khilanani said she gave Yale the name of her talk after being invited.
She said Yale did not respond or raise concerns about her talk for a “long period of time”.
Dr Khilanani said: “I was kind of surprised because usually, people want to know a lot of details.
“And then I think, and I’m not sure about this, maybe they only put the announcement out the day before.
“I’m not sure. This is what I think because I only got the concerns as relayed to me from the dean right before. I didn’t hear any concerns prior to that.”
A day before the talk, a person in the Dean’s department contacted her, questioning the potential impact of her presentation.
On the concerns, Dr Khilanani said part of the “anxiety” was around the use of the word white and “them having to reflect on that”.
She said: “When I’m breaking this down psychologically, what they’re saying on some level is like, ‘We need things to be the same.
“If you can say ‘white,’ we can say ‘Asian’.
“Psychologically, they’re actually making a false equivalence.
“What they’re doing psychologically is obliterating the difference between white and Asian, and if you obliterate the difference there’s no f**king problem here so shut up, you’re the real racist.
“That’s how it functions psychologically.”