"I would have loved to get married to him."
Neena Gupta revealed that she was once dumped by a man whom she was about to marry.
She spoke about the subject of loneliness to Kareena Kapoor Khan.
The revelation came on the launch day of Neena’s autobiography, titled Sach Kahun Toh.
Kareena launched the book and during their conversation, Neena said that besides a few “small affairs”, she did not really have a companion after moving to Mumbai.
Neena has been married to Vivek Mehra since 2008.
Neena told Kareena: “In fact, while I was writing the book, I realised in my prime years I have been without a lover or husband.
“Because I came here, then small affairs, nothing really materialised. Basically, I was all alone.”
Neena had been in a relationship with cricketer Vivian Richards during the 1980s. They had a daughter together named Masaba.
During her conversation with Kareena, Neena also recalled being on the verge of marrying one man.
She said that he cancelled their marriage at the “last minute” while she was out shopping.
On what happened, Neena said: “Till today I don’t know.
“That happened. But what can I do? I moved on.
“I would have loved to get married to him. I had a lot of respect for his father, mother.
“I was living in their house. He’s going to read, he’s alive, he’s happily married. He has children.”
Although she is married, Neena admitted that she still feels jealous whenever she sees people in regular relationships.
“People say I lived my life on my own terms. Actually, I never did.
“Wherever I went wrong, I accepted it and moved forward.
“I wanted to have a normal husband, children, my in-laws.”
“When I see other people I do feel a little envious. I did not blame, I did not become alcoholic, because what I wanted I did not get.”
Neena Gupta also recalled the blast on the sets of The Sword of Tipu Sultan and how Masaba saved her life.
“It was a traumatic experience. They (the makers) were doing my wedding scene.
“Masaba was one-and-a-half years old. That day, Masaba had a little fever. So, I didn’t take her along on the sets.
“But later, in the afternoon, I sent back my car and I got her to the shoot.
“At that time, I was feeding her in between the shoot. I sneaked out of the studio. I reached my room. I picked up Masaba and I heard a blast.
“When I came out, I saw a lightman coming towards me. He was on fire. I was looking at him.
“He called me to help. I remember I said, ‘how can I help when I have a child with me’.
“They took me to the main building where we had the office. We were sent home. It was too traumatic.
“Even now, when I think about it, I wonder how I got saved.”
The book will take readers through Neena’s journey from her time at the National School of Drama (NSD) to moving to Mumbai in the 1980s and being a single mother.