"I haven’t got anybody with whom I can sit and talk."
Former Bigg Boss contestant Nikki Tamboli has admitted that she is yet to come to terms with her brother’s death.
Elder brother Jatin Tamboli passed away due to Covid-19 on May 4, 2021.
Just days later, Nikki had to leave for Cape Town to shoot for her upcoming reality show Khatron Ke Khiladi 11.
Although she is busy filming the show, Nikki revealed that she has not been able to come to terms with her brother’s loss, stating she has not spoken to anyone about it.
She explained: “To be honest, I haven’t.
“I haven’t got anybody with whom I can sit and talk.
“I haven’t even spoken to my mom and dad. I am still in Cape Town, I cannot talk to them.”
“I cannot talk to them about what happened to my brother.”
“(It is because) I know if I become weak in front of them, if I cry in front of them, I do not know what they will feel.
“I am just trying to accept what happened. I am just letting it go and moving ahead.”
When she announced that she would be in Khatron Ke Khiladi 11, Nikki Tamboli received a lot of criticism for the announcement just days after her brother’s death.
This prompted her to write a long note, revealing that her brother was excited about the show.
Nikki wrote: “I am at that stage of my life right now where I have my family who is struggling hard to overcome the loss on one hand and where I have my work commitments.
“Where I am at the peak of my career on the other, and if I have to choose between this there’s no other option, my family comes always first but my family, my parents, my dad always told me to go live your dreams go achieve it because trust me your brother will be the most happiest watching you fulfil your dreams.
“I remember before my brother was admitted to hospital we had discussed Khatron Ke Khiladi and he was very excited and happy about it.
“I am choosing Khatron Ke Khiladi because of my work commitment and I have always been loyal to my work because it has given me everything.
“@colorstv @endemolshineind has been a backbone where I am today is because of them.
“I know in my heart what my family means to me. I have been portraying myself to be strong in front of people but I know where I stand in my life and my family knows what I am going through, but as it’s said ‘The Show Must Go On’.
“I’m going for my brother, for my family and to overcome my fear where as I know there are hundreds and millions of people who are praying for my family and my brother and I am going to go achieve all of that with the support of my guardian angel my dada.
“I wanted my brother to come out of hospital and see me in Khatron.
“But that won’t happen, but now he will be the closest one to watch me from above.
“I am fighting my pain to see my brother happy and he will be my shield forever.”