"I knew I was having an anxiety attack."
Jen Shah has detailed her prison struggles as she serves a six-and-a-half years sentence for fraud.
Since beginning her sentence, Jen’s team has been posting about her experience in prison.
Jen, who appeared on The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City, said she suffered an “anxiety attack” and broke down on a FaceTime call with her eldest son.
She insisted that she “didn’t belong” in prison but is trying to make the most of it.
Jen complained about the ‘brown bag breakfast’, which she said she was too tired to wake up for on her second day.
She said: “It had one piece of wheat bread, an apple, two packets of jelly and a packet of instant oatmeal.
“I ate the piece of bread; a lady was offering instant coffee in the common area but I didn’t have a mug.
“I saved the apple and oatmeal packet in my locker since I don’t go to the commissary until next Tuesday.
“If I do get hungry, I can at least have something to eat.”
Jen Shah was jailed for running a telemarketing scam that defrauded elderly people across the United States out of tens of millions of dollars.
Recalling her journey to the prison, Jen said:
“Two miles from Bryan Federal Prison Camp (FPC), I could not breathe and my hands went numb. I knew I was having an anxiety attack.”
She stated that a friend named Kashanna but who is nicknamed Special K surrendered on the same day as her. Since then, the pair have bonded.
“We’ve kind of stuck together the first full day as we both walked in shocked, stunned and scared trying to figure out where we go from here.”
In her journal entry, she said her heart felt like it had been “broken into a million pieces”.
“As I stare into the dark, I think this has to be a dream – but here I am. I keep thinking this is insane, completely ridiculous.
“I know why I’m here, but this just feels like someone like me doesn’t belong in here. I’ve never been in trouble before.”
“Then I instantly stop myself from going down this self-destructive path of thinking.
“I am here because I did this to myself and there is no one to blame but me.”
Speaking about her victims, Jen wrote:
“People got hurt because of my decisions. While incarcerated I will work to make amends and reconcile with the victims of my crime.”